Married Life

You heard it right folks, I am married!!!! like how it’s happen? well it happened during the time I’m not writing this blog, since I’m busy with wedding preparation and life.

How’s the wedding??? well it’s super long to tell so another post for the wedding 😉 so this post definitely going to skip the wedding and straight to my married life. Hmmmmm I have nothing but grateful for everything, I’m not yet experience a full married life since we still didn’t live together yet, but we are planning on doing it next year which is going to be in 2 weeks, like 2018 is super near y’all *gasps*

The married life as I experienced it so far had been wonderful, I mean we known each other for like 10 years; next year, and been together for 7 years now married to each other for about 5 months, plus minus and yetttt there is still so much I didn’t know about my lovely, deary and amazing husband. Like literally he is all that, lovely, deary, amazing and so many more words can’t describe. I mean I know him before, but nowwwwww, he is more wonderful. So I can’t be more grateful that I married my husband. Thank you Allah 🙂

At first it was kind of hard adjusting life as a husband and wife, we both confuse and lost, still are mind you. But we are learning and it was super awesome. Of course me, a lazy and love to sleep person don’t want to change my habit, I would rather die than change it but as a sane person, I have to do something, I can’t continue lazing around my bed, watching movies, drama series and everything internet has to offer, can I?

But my husband is a patient person, like Korean drama would say, you must save a country in your previous life to get this kind of luck, maybe I did 😉 he wanted to changed me, in a good way but he do it slowly and patiently that my stubborn ass felt so sorry for him and decided, okay I’ll do it for you. But change need time, I mean you want me to jog in the morning? that pushing it mister! he also wants us to pray together, which is good and as a good wife and muslim, I should obey buttttt I felt like, the request disturb my lazy ass so sometimes I rebel. And since he was understanding husband we made an agreement that we pray together 3 times a day instead of 5, where I am okay with that.

I am a stubborn human being, there’s a lot of thing piss me off so disturbing my movie times was one of it, you can understand why I fought so hard for my right, can you? When I mean change it’s not like he wanted for me to be someone else, he just wanted me to adjust my time for him, okay? I’m still a feminist in heart and I don’t think it’s right for a guy to ask a woman to change her behavior just for him.

I don’t cook everyday for him since we are not living together, but we do have weekend home so every free weekend we stay together, sometimes I cook, most of the times we eat out. But when I cook, he also want to be in the kitchen to help, which I think so amazing. Even when I want to cook for him like a good wife I am he wanted to help -_-. Thank you to my MIL for raising such a rajin boy that like to help woman in the kitchen 🙂 and now I’m sick he literally do everything 🙂

I think that’s all for now, okay my husband is not beside me forcing me to write wonderful thing about him. In fact he is at work leaving his laptop behind so his sick wife is not lonely.

P/S: Is blogging still cool? or is it too early 2000’s?





Wedding Preparation


Soooo I’m getting marry 🙂 and the preparation is starting. I kept saying to people, it’s still far from my wedding date but the true is, it’s only about 8 months to my big date! OMG!!! and there is a lot of things that I still unable to settle. For example, goodies. I have back and forth discussion about it with my mom. My mom is 5 minutes decision kind of person, she could buy 500 box of goodies and then change her mind and buy another 500 other stuff. So the last time I met her she kind of determined to give bunga telur for goodies and I have no say at all. Feyonce said it’s cool since my mom is super hype to plan the wedding butttt I want it to be my way tooooo T_T *cry a river*

Dress, so basically I have 3 dresses for the wedding. First is for Nikah, I already went to the tailor and it basically settle, the other one is for my reception. So for that one I already have the linen and all I just need to find the right tailor and it is hard!!! I heard about people went to the wrong tailor and her wedding dress is a mess so I’m super freak out right now!  the third dress I will wear it at feyonce to be husband reception. So that one is basically okay since we will rent the dress and since I am size normal it’s not hard for me but must be super hard for feyonce. Feels sorry for him.

I already find caterer/wedding and my mom will meet the wedding planner but I will meet the wedding planner too since I have few request for the wedding and for my dais. We will also need to find tok kadi for akad nikah and I asked my dad to deal with it since he knows people and it will be easier for him. I already chose the mosque for akad nikah because no way I will do it at my home, too much work -_-

Basically to plan a wedding you need patience, with out it you will become bridezilla and since by the look at it my mom is the one who will become a bridezilla because it practically her second wedding. soooooo yay



My bf and I had been together for 6 years plus, we met at Uni and still together until now and as you know we are planning to get married. To say that our relationship is easy breezy is not true and we’ve been through hell together.Being in love when you are in your early 20 is not easy. Mostly because you still have a mind of a teenager and everyone knows teenager doesn’t always make a good decision.


On the first year it’s all unicorn, rainbow and everything nice because we still in the first phase. Even if we were mad, we still try out best to hide our true feelings. Especially for him, he is not the type to confront me directly. But when we started our Degree it’s kind of rocky road for us and I think we broke up with each other for about 10 times! Usually I initiated it.There were plenty of reason on why our relationship was so bad that time, but I have to say that our stubbornness contribute so much!


In addition we both were pretty young, and this is our first real relationship so we cannot refer to our last relationship because we have none. I am an outspoken person with serious issue of wrong tone to voice out  my opinion and he is I-don’t-want-to-deal with problem let’s assume we have none. As you know I need to address the problem. I cannot ignore it and every time I did that I use the wrong tone and made him all defensive.

Now that I’m quite older (not that old) I learn a lot and to avoid the same fight, I use more reasonable tone. Always start with “kenapa etc etc etc” and wait for him to explain nicely so we can have a civil conversation without shouting like crazy people.Instead of being immature bitch, get jealous at every girl he interacted with, I try to calm myself by reminding myself that when I get jealous its my problem, I have self esteem issue and I am the only one who can solve it. It’s no use to get mad at him especially when the interaction is innocent.


But of course we have long way to go. There are a lot of thing to learn. There is no such thing as perfect relationship and I am so annoyed by #relationshipgoal because it’s so superficial.People just show you things they want you to see. Every relationship is different, you cannot compare your relationship with others. Some people give lavish gift to their SO on daily basis or on special occasion like what Kanye do with Kim K but do you really want an asshole to be your husband? see everyone is different try to embrace it.  Relationship about accepting your other half flaws and he/she to do the same.

Post E-day

Yes, I ‘m engaged, I am someone fiance *show off my engagement ring*. I don’t know how to feel except to feel weirdly happy. To be not too cheesy, I called my fiance, fionce in playful manners but it still awkward. We still adjusting to this new phase but everyday we are thankful because we have a family that support and bless our relationship and of course we are thankful of each other. He sweetly said thank you to me on our daily date because I accepted his proposal. I hope this sweetness has no expiry date.

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So the E-day is not as chaos as I imagined, thank god! It’s not too smooth also, but it is perfect considering this is first time my family host this kind of event. Let’s go thru the event shall we;

  1. Dais – So it is DIY style and it shows, I mean it didn’t look professional but it’s pretty. To me personally I put too many flowers, and maybe too many curtain and too many lights. I guess because of too many of everything it became quite crowded. But still pretty.
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2. Dress – It’s just perfect. My sister said it is not rose gold but I search the colour in front of her and compared it to my dress and it didn’t look too far apart so I think we can consider it rose gold. My mom add pearls to my dress and it just sooo beautiful.

IMG_68223. Hantaran – Although not what I imagine, I couldn’t complain because it is so gorgeous and the most important is that we did it ourselves.I plan to do it with fresh flower but end up using plastic because it’s hard to find fresh flower, baby breath to be exact but still beautiful. And hantaran need a lot of flower, so be prepare to buy a lot

4. Food – My dad in charge of this and he chose a great catering but the problem is miscommunication between him and the caterer. He asked for 70 pax for 2 dishes but the caterer assume it’s 35 for 1 dish and another 35 for the other dish. So end up the food seem not enough.

5. Photographer – Because I’m kind of in a budget I just hire my friend to do it. He is not professional photographer but he always took nice picture of us so I ask him to help. His picture is beautiful but since he is lacking in experience and this is just a favor I cannot treat him like a photographer. But the picture is still awesome

6. Make up – Actually I don’t want to have a MUA but my mom insist on it. Thankfully my aunt is an amazing mua and successfully make me look so pretty. I rarely put on make up so I looked weird at first and my fionce never like my face with make up but that day he said I looked pretty, I decided to trust him

7.Atmosphere – Lively? hahaha I’m not the one to judged since I am too preoccupied with myself and how to entertained my friends. I have to say I don’t have to do much since fionce family  and my family are big and fun.

So in conclusion I said it is a successful event. Everyone having fun I don’t know what else I could wish for.

I guess till wedding day?!


It’s hard, if anyone tell you planning a wedding is not hard, him/her gotta be a big fat liar!

So I’m getting engage, by the time I post this article, I probably already become some one fiance! cross fingers >.< I don’t know how to feel, people kept asking me but I’m like  I didn’t feel anything… cool as cucumber no? hahah it’s a NO. I am so stress out right now. It’s probably because it’s is my faults but it’s too late to cry T_T

I determined to do everything for my engagement DIY, because I badly want to safe money and I did safe money. But it is hard and stressing me out.


So first of all is my dais, it is simple, hipster like dais. Well at least that’s what’s on my mind! I almost get it. It is all white with sofa, see-thru curtain, just a minimal amount of flower and…. I wanted a fairy light. But I bought a wrong one and it’s already cost me RM72. I bought it at TYPO and now I realize it super overprice because the light is so not amazing! So now I have to find a new fairy light.  NEW COST ALERT


Secondly, hantaran! this one is really make me want to cry!!!  First of all what you need to know when you want to do your own hantaran is how much flower it will need. it will need A LOT. So please beli banyak2 like so banyak! I only managed to do one! with the flower I bought. HAHAHAHA

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I plan to do a simple dress for the engagement, a baju kurung modern with little lace and my mom sewn pearls on it! it’s pretty and dreamy. The kain cost me RM38 and the upah menjahit is RM50, But the lace cost me whooping RM59! it is crazy! I dunno if you guys think it is cheap but not to me! so the total cost is about RM147

I think that’s  about it now, but I will update on the wedding later. Wish me luck

p/s: Not engaged yet!